A Little Familiar

It's been a long time...

2010-10-20T21:15:00.003-05:00

Ok so I know that it has been along time since I posted to this and my apologizes for that. Life has been really crazy, between running a business, being a marketing/sales manager for my mom's business and then getting all my classes done to work at H&R Block again. My business is Scentsy wickless candles, if anyone is interested, you can order from my page at: jloviatt9.scentsy.us ...... I hope that all is well and my thoughts and prayers go out to all the other parents of SIDS, along with any parents that have lost a child.

To my William:
I know that you are watching over us and that you are okay. It doesn't ease my pain. Everyday that passes, I miss you even more. I know that I will see you again and I know that when I lay my head down at night you are right there beside me. I have my good days and my bad days. However, my days seem to run together more and more. It seems that I am getting less and less sleep. I know that our Father, God, doesn't put more on us than we can handle. But mommy is going thru a really hard time right now. She doesn't doubt God, but she doubts herself, when she shouldn't second guess herself. I sit on the couch or on my bed and see your beautiful big eyes, looking up at me and it makes me want to pick you up and hold you. To kiss your head and tell you how much I love you. I'm sure you would be crawling now and pulling yourself up; along with trying to talk. You would be eating jar food and teething. I am sure you would be such the little man, but yet the big boy. I love you with all my heart. We all miss you so much and wish that you were still here with us. Until the next time that I write you... All my love...
Mommy

Married a month...

2010-07-11T01:24:00.002-05:00

Well it's been a month since Troy and I got married. Who would of ever thought that after 15 years, we would be married. Every day I miss my little guy alot... One day it will be alot easier... I have been working, and my girls are ready for mommy to be home instead at work. I will post more later... Lots of love..

Easter 2010....

2010-04-04T22:25:00.003-05:00

Well today was an okay day... It started out with church and then we took the girls to "Little Guy's" place, where we put Easter eggs on his grave... I weighed them down, with potting soil in them... You know it's really not suppose to be this way.. He wasn't suppose to be there, he was suppose to be here with us, to celebrate Jesus' rebirth. I am really trying to stay strong... But with all these 1st holidays, I think THAT IT JUST REALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is very hard to let him go, I mean I have well the best that I can anyways, but I cry almost everyday and I have my moments, where all I want to do is staying inside and not go anywhere. But what will that accomplish? I really wish that I could answer why this happened... Life was GREAT and then BAMMMMM i went tumbling down this hill and don't know why!! Why did God put this pain on me? On my family? The one thing I can say is that I am greatful that we got to love him the 30 days he was here and the bond I had with him those precious 9 months that he was in me.. I can't explain all the feelings that comes with having a little boy... or even a little girl... But to have 3 girls and then get a boy... WOW.. God is Great, I just wish that I had longer with my little guy, I wish that William's real dad had the chance to met him and hold him... I am thankful that God gave me Troy to help me thru this horrible time and my family to help keep me together. Hailee and Nicole are having a very hard time right now.. They want answers and I can't answer them. Everytime Lily sees a baby she says "Bubba" or when we go to his grave she waves, says "Bubba" and blows a kiss. I am beginning to think that maybe she can see beyond what we believe, she's so precious, they all are.. But she is so young she doesn't understand.. All she knows is that is where we laid Bubba down and that's our place to go see him at.. I wish that we could all hold him again hear his words, touch him, watch him crawl/walk/run for the first time. Hold his hand, for the first time he skinned his knee.. God, I really miss him.. I know I will see him again and that he's up there looking down on me. I know that he will not feel the pain that we have here on Earth; I know he's in a better place... But it still hurts, it still feels like there is a piece of my heart gone. Good night until the next time I write.

To my little guy:
I know that you are in a better place, a place with no pain. I place were we can only image the perfectness that god has for us. I know that you are ok and that you watching over us. I only wish that there was some way that our family could have peace with you being gone. To mend our hearts and fill us with your love.. I hear you cry sometimes, and go to check on you, but your not there. I know it's your way to tell me your okay. I have some of your pictures on the walls, so we can see your tiny, precious and perfect face everyday. We go to visit you grave every Sunday, even though it's hard. We love you soooooo much, sooo very much. You are missed more than words can ever explain and even though mommy fills her day with housework, tending to your sisters and the wedding, there's not a second that goes by that you are not on my mind. I love you and will write you soon. XOXOXOXO
Mommy

Another Bad day...

2010-03-30T23:57:00.002-05:00

Well today, started out okay. I woke up in time to get the girls up and out the door on time to catch the bus. Then my mommy came over to watch Liliana for Troy and I to go to our pre-marriage counseling. Then when we got home from that, it was time for Troy to head to work. Mom and I went to Anthony to Alco to find some stuff for the flowers. We also found a memorial that is made with the design from our wedding invitations on it with some artificial flowers for our little guys grave. We went out their and mom put them next to his headstone. I cry everytime I go out there, it just a metal marker with William L Hayden and 2010-2010 on it. So mom brings me back home and goes home herself. She's not home 30 minutes when she sends me a link to where you can order headstones, for a reasonable price. I never thought headstones would be so costly.... BOY was I wrong!!!! So we start looking at different designs and things and it just made me really sad. We all ended up going out to Pizza Hut, and I just wanted to go put my little guy to bed and give him a kiss... Just to hold him again and give him my love, as he looks up at me like "mommy would you please stop" >:D< ..... I know he is flying on Angels wings right now, and he is in a better place but God my life was GREAT and now it is good, but it's not as great as it was... I'm trying to stay strong for the girls, but it is soooo hard!!! They don't understand and they want answers and I wish that I could give them the answers to take their pain away... I know that one day we will all understand, but until then it is gonna be hard... I LOVE AND MISS YOU LITTLE GUY, WILLIAM!!!! Until mommy writes again... Goodnight my love... XOXOXO

life...

2010-03-26T01:49:00.003-05:00

Okay, so I haven't blogged since the day after my little guy got here. But life has happened and I just have not felt like talking about it. However, I think I should! I want to scream and yell and hate and I just can't!!! My little guy was taken from my on February 24th, he was 30 days old. He passed away sometime between 5 and 9 am. They said he just stopped breathing in the night. They are calling it SIDS.. I keep looking for an explaination, but am not getting one. I keep sitting around waiting to hear him cry and nothing. The house is some what quiet and sad. Every night before Liliana goes to bed, she waves at the ceiling and says Bubba. Maybe she sees something I don't, okay obviously, she does. I often cry myself to sleep after everyone else goes to bed, cuz I miss him so much. Yesterday was 1 month since he left us and we took carnations to his grave. It was a very hard day, the girls begged to go see him and they didn't want to go to school. So we took them with us and then went to my mom's to hang out.

To William's dad, I am not here to judge you, but to be your friend. You know you have an ear when you need someone to listen. I don't know what to say to him, butI know it's not fair. All I can do is try to be his friend. We once shared this great love, or so I thought, but I would like to think so. We have another beautiful child together, who makes me believe in the more positive side of things.

On a more positive note, Troy and I finally set a date!! We are getting married on June 5th, of this year. We have not decided where we are going to take a honeymoon to as of yet. I think that I am going to start blogging more and put my letters to my little guy on here, so maybe it can help anyone else that is going thru something like this in their life, or they just need to read them to help them heal..

Christmas 2009

2010-01-25T22:45:00.012-06:00

William Lesley....

2010-01-25T22:45:00.010-06:00

William Lesley came at 4:45 today weighing in at 7 lbs and 20 inches long... As perfect as an angel.. He are just some of the pictures...

Update...

2009-09-03T23:27:00.002-05:00

Well I went to the baby's appt today... The baby's heartbeat was 154... From what the sonogram shows I'm 19 weeks tomorrow, give or take 2 weeks..

Liliana is getting big, she went to the doctors this past week, she weighed in at 21 lbs and 8 oz, along with measuring 29 in tall.. She's standing up and walking along furniture and walking with her shoes on all over the place with someone holding her hands.. She has 7 1/2 teeth in and another cutting thru.. Boy does mom love teething... :) In the process of taking formula away from her and getting her switched to milk.... Next will be the fun of taking the bottle from her and potting training (well when mom gets her a potty!).....

Hailee and Nikki are loving school, girl scouts are suppose to be starting in the next week or two! :) Yeah... What fun it is to be in 1st and 2nd grade!

I'm in my 2nd block of online courses and start tax pro classes a week from Saturday, so life is going to get crazy and busy... YAY!!! Tax season is almost here and I'll be back to work...

Take care and will update soon..

Update and Pictures...

2009-08-31T20:16:00.007-05:00

Amanda here are the pictures of the yard clean-up... I'll take some better ones for you, now that my memory card is not full! :)

A couple misc. photos...

Hailee's 8th birthday party over the 4th of July.....

Last pictures from Arkansas....

Pictures... Finally

2009-06-27T23:06:00.006-05:00

From Oklahoma City visit on May 13th, 2009.

These pictures are from June 2009. These are from the day of Hailee's birthday. Her actual party is on the 4th of July!

From Makayla's 1st Birthday Party!

I love this picture of Lily sleeping. :)

2009-06-09T11:13:00.003-05:00

This is the Beaver Dam.. The girls loved it. Look it's Hailee, Nicole and U. Jeff (that's Hailee). Jeff giving the girls a ride on the motorcycle. How fun is that??? They loved it, they didn't want to get off of the bike...

Miss Lily...

2009-06-07T16:28:00.003-05:00

Well my Miss Lily finally did it!! She got up on her knees and off she went!! Here's the picture...

I know its probably not the best pic... But I'm glad I took it, cuz time I grab the camera and had it on she was done with the crawling for a little bit.. But I will keep the camera close so I can try and get some video for those who want it!!

Lily...

2009-06-03T23:51:00.002-05:00

Well Lily has another ear infection. So we go and see the ENT doctor on June 12th (next friday) they want to put tubes in. She weighs over 19 lbs. :) But other then the ear infection she is in great health.

YAY! I'm up and running again....

2009-05-27T21:33:00.005-05:00

Well I just wanted everyone to know that I am up and running again. I got my internet hooked up today! YAY! So I will get pictures up soon.. 1st let me catch up with my facebook... lol...

Ok, I will add more later...

Moving...

2009-04-25T23:22:00.001-05:00

Okay, so we finally get to move!!! YAY!! I will post pictures of before, during and after of the house, along with kids pictures.. It's probably gonna take a couple of days to get the house situated! Plus, the internet is not hooked up yet, so it's gonna be a few days before that happens. Just wanted to let everyone know that everything is still good on this end & yes, I still planning on coming to OKC in a couple of weekends. I'll call to let you know ahead of time and get details worked out. Love you guys and take care til we can talk again!:)

pictures....

2009-04-07T11:42:00.011-05:00

Ok, a few days late... SORRY... There's an assortment of all the girls, well exception of Miss Brittany. :( But soon, she'll get to see her little sister. I'm hoping that after this weekend the house in Danville will be done. Then tax season ends next Wednesday so I'll have a little more time off. Soooo, hopefully we can catch up to big sister. Brittany, I promise we'll go to the park to make up for the weather the last time I was down.
P.S. I got more pictures coming, haven't uploaded my camera.
Princess Lily

We love the tub!

Such a big girl, holding her bottle

My mom bought this outfit, the first time I put it on her the buttons fell off! :(

I'm so cute sleeping.

Look, I'm sitting on daddy's shoulder. HAIR....

Daddy's feeding Lily.... AWWWWWW....

Can you find Lily, she was trying to play peek-a-boo with me.

Look, I'm sitting up all by myself.

This tank is at the Argonia Park, the girls thought it was cool.

Take by my friend Angie.

Spring pictures done by school.

Life.....

2009-04-05T23:38:00.002-05:00

OMG! This past week has been crazy!! Week before last I caught the flu, yes type A, Influenza, of course Hailee & Nikki caught it! They have spent all week home being sick. Thank goodness they are over it and can return to school tomorrow. Then about 4 days ago Liliana got really cranky and fussy. So Friday evening I took her to Immediate Care and she has an ear infection, but she has no voice, poor baby cant even cry, or anything. She weighed in with clothes and diaper on at 17 lbs, 5 oz. She can barely say momma & dadda, she likes to say momma to get my attention & the minute I look at her or answer her, she switches over to dadda... Everything is Dadda. But she goes back in tomorrow, she suppose to get shots, but I don't know if she can if she not over being sick.
So on top of that, I spent most of last week trying to get remodeling done on the house. We (Jason & I) were out there most of the weekend to get the girls room done! However in the midst of it all, my best-friend Melissa moved into a new house, got all done last night @ 7pm and at 3:15 this morning the house went up in flames! Sooo, it's been a long week and I hope that it goes a little easier this next week.
I promise to get pictures up tomorrow. Girls had spring pictures at school got those also, will get them all posted.. Until tomorrow/ later today... lol

more pictures....

2009-03-22T11:55:00.009-05:00

Nikki posing for daddy Robert.

Nikki and Hailee we are so cute.

Hailee posing for daddy Robert.

Lily playing outside..

Trying to get her purse off.

Lily's ready to go shopping!

Lily's other great-grandma & her.

Sleeping on the way back from grandma's house.

These are of papa being funny, sorry the picture is so distorted, but at least you can here Liliana laughing...

OK, so update...I officially owe my 1st house! YEAH, however, now I just have to get my brother off the premises so I can get the house improvements done! But in the mean time of doing that, I've seemed to catch a bad cold! My chest hurts and lots of nose issues, but thank goodness, as of right now, none of the kids have caught it.

As promised............

2009-03-14T22:59:00.008-05:00

Look I found mom's pen. Chewing on pens is fun.. Ok, this was Lily's first time sitting up on her own. I had to distract her to get the picture.

Just got done moving nanny into her new house in Caldwell, it made Lily tired.

Went to Lowe's to buy some parts to fix the plumbing in the new house. Had to look at some porch furniture. Look mom, I found what I want for the front porch!

Lily's 1st time with a teething biscuit...

Sleeping beauties...

Grandma and her girls..

See all the fun I had with my other sister on Valentines weekend.

Look I can hold my own cup.

All done! :)

Crystal and I are taking a nap...

Crystal is watching me...

I really want these cookies, Nikki just had some...

Close up....

Did anyone say close up?

Laying on my tummy for the 1st time...

Okay, so back to the more boring stuff. LOL. I took Lily in last Tuesday cause her teething is making her really stuffy & I was worried it could be something more; however, she weighs 15 lbs, 14 oz (size 3 diapers). I really wish that first tooth would come in. Last week Liliana said her first word, can you guess what it was?????? It was Mama and a couple days later followed with Dada. She likes to babble a lot, who knows what she is saying (besides her) but I think its so adorable! Her bangs are growing like weeds, before long I'm gonna have to get her first hair cut.
Robert passed his med gas test! YEAH, daddy!! We are very proud of him for that, he's done a great job with school! He sent me pictures of the new project from work, but my phone erased them! :( He's working on a Hanger for Cessna and out on Spring break as well.
We will hopefully get to move into our house soon! I just have to drywall the girls' room, first. Yeah, me!! LOL. Too bad I won't be moving this week, like I thought! :( I was hoping to have the girls in the new school at the end of spring break. Hopefully, I'll get to start my dry-walling project while my dad's on break, so he can help; and be in it by the end of March! :) I'll keep everyone posted on the progress.

update....

2009-03-06T11:16:00.002-06:00

Well so much has been going on since I went to Oklahoma City on Valentines Day. I have pictures, I promise to get them uploaded hopefully in the next week. But just a little update. Lily can sit up almost perfect by herself, yes I did get a picture! I'm also buying a house in the country, it's in Danville, KS, it's about 30 minutes closer to Oklahoma City!! Yeah! But I've got to do some remodeling on it first! So hopefully in the next couple of weeks it will be done. It's on 2 acres, until then I'm gonna move out of my duplex and stay with my ex-husband, who's been helping me with the girls. I'm still working for H&R, however, they have cut my hours back to almost nothing. My mom also moved last weekend, she is buying a house in Caldwell, KS. So it puts me a little closer to her as well! But I'll have the internet, so I promise to get these pictures uploaded sometime within the next week!

Finally.......

2009-02-10T15:55:00.008-06:00

Well Little Miss Liliana, loves taken a bath, however she gets mad when she can't sit up. So I found this bath tool! lol.. Its the greatest thing in the world! Trying to sit up! My little angel.... My 1st time trying green beans! YUCK!! I love my tummy time.

New pictures......

2009-01-13T07:42:00.003-06:00

Ok, so Lily update... She likes to be upright! So my mom went & bought her a exersaucer for when she was here. It took my dad & brother to put it together!

However, this is what it looked like when it was done.

Mommy & I cuddling....

I'm fake sleeping... & sticking my tongue out.

I think it's playtime, not bedtime...

I love my bouncer @ nana's.

I still got Christmas pictures to upload, but waiting for them to make it to the computer. Things have been kinda crazy for my mom. She got another cochlear implant, this time on the left ear. So she's been back and forth to Kansas City, but I promise to get them on here or on hers.

Happy New Years.... with pics

2009-01-06T08:28:00.009-06:00

Last day of 2008, by does my shirt say it all... lol My 1st pic of the New Year, mom has me styling... 1st day of eating rice... We love our jumperoo! Pictures from christmas! Well, the New Year has been long awaited! lol... 1st picture of 2009 with my daddy....
Lily is playing indian and with her new glow sea horse in these clips.

Oh Christmas has went away....

2008-12-30T09:43:00.004-06:00

Ok, so here's the latest update! Christmas was great! The trip to Oklahoma was great (to short, made for a late night) but GREAT!

Sandie & Mikey the girls loved their presents! I really need to buy a stock in a battery company though! Lol........

I couldn't wait to open the Jumperoo!!! I put it together at 11 last night, of course, Lily woke up while I was doing it! :) I have pictures of her in it, but I'm at work so I'll upload them later today at my moms! Her little legs are not quite long enough to reach the floor. However I would push down to make it jump & move, when it stopped she would move back & forth to make it move! She loved it for about 10 minutes, then want to get out! (It was past bed time!)

I also gave her rice cereal for the 1st time last night. I feed her and she was still hungry after 30 minutes of drinking her milk. She loved the cereal!! She ate lots of it! (I also took a picture!)

I bought myself a crock pot at Sam's yesterday (thanks, Sandie & Mikey!), along with a plate set for Lily. I couldn't resist it.... Lol. It's hard to buy just for me, when I haven't done it in a long time! But I still have some shopping to do at Wal-Mart.....

Christmas pictures

2008-12-26T17:21:00.001-06:00

Look, Im so cute in my Christmas dress!

There's more Christmas pictures to come!

Liliana pictures.....

2008-12-21T20:45:00.033-06:00

More of my pretty princess.

Some odds & ends......
I don't feel good! But mommy is trying to cheer me up!
Mommy's friend Josh trying to help make time go by while in the hospital!

Getting a breathing treatment..

More odds & ends.....

My daddy is admiring me!!!

Nikki"s Birthday Party

2008-12-21T20:45:00.014-06:00

Well, my little house was very full! We had lots of kids & adults turnout for Nicole's 6th Birthday.... So here's the pictures...
Nikki's favorite present....

Johnny & Makayla

Daddy & Liliana

Aunt Brenda, Lily, Nikki & Me

Candy, Lennox and Kaleb

The Ice cream Cake

Amanda & Melissa

Part of the gang....

Jason H & Rebecca

Another part of the gang!

Josh's Back & Amanda

Me cutting the Ice Cream Cake!

My Chunky Monkey! :)

2008-12-20T09:31:00.004-06:00

Well we went back to the doctor's yesterday, but not because we were sick, we went for our shots (finally)!!!! :( She got 3 shots and a vial of liquid for the new virus that causes the "poops". SO.... I gave her some Tylenol about 15-20 minutes before her shots... and to my surprise... She did GREAT!!! Until about an hour afterwards, then she got overly fussy & I had to sit under her. :) But we weighed in at 12 lbs and 5 ounces, 22 1/2 in long. I have some more pictures to post, but I will have to get to another computer to do that! (I'm at work!) I will do my best to get them uploaded before Christmas! So they don't all get loaded at the same time!

P.S. Grandma Sandy, Papa Mikey and Brittany Boo, we are getting excited! Just 1 more week til we get to see you! :)

Thank you Mom for posting a couple of the new pictures that I have taken.

Pretty Princess

2008-12-17T19:36:00.004-06:00

Just a couple of pictures of Liliana. She is getting so big.

Girls School Pictures

2008-12-15T13:58:00.003-06:00

Girls school pictures!

New Pics!

2008-12-15T13:16:00.009-06:00

Going shopping in Aunt Bree's purse! I'm smiling at Papa singing "happy birthday to himself!" My new bouncer at grandma's. Liliana sick.... :( Look we got the tree done, finally!!

Lily Update....

2008-12-07T18:51:00.002-06:00

Well after all the test the results are in, she has bronchiolitis, in another words she as RSV. She is no longer dehydrated, or feverish. She is eating better. Thank goodness that we might even be out of the hospital later this evening, doubt it, but possibly. I have pictures that I will upload in the next day or so. Please keep Liliana in your prayers, heaven knows she is so strong. Her heartbeat is back to normal, except for when she gets upset. So I just try to keep her as calm as possible. I will let everyone know when I know more.

10 Weeks........

2008-12-06T21:36:00.003-06:00

Well the last 4 days have been hectic! Liliana has been coughing, congested, had fevers & non-wet diapers. So today was the beginning of the end, or so it felt like it. She hit 102.5 under the arm (that's before you add the degree) and still no wet diaper. So I took her to Immediate Care and we ended up being transported to Via Christi St Francis. We have spent all day here! They have started an IV for dehydration plus she has a sensor for her oxygen level.

Update: Liliana has bronchitis. We will be in the hospital until we can get her eating better. She is getting breathing treatments every 2 hours and they are going to come deep suction her nose. And give her oxygen if needed. They just came in and poked her for more lab test! Poor baby, she's such a trooper.

Holidays....

2008-11-27T09:31:00.002-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I will post pictures of today, hopefully tomorrow, along with the other pictures I have on mom's camera of Liliana. Her 1st Thanksgiving..... I'm so excited, things are a little hectic around my house today, due to I'm fixing Thanksgiving. Thank goodness Hailee is such a BIG sister.

Here's some more pics and video!

2008-11-25T08:34:00.009-06:00

Here are some long awaited videos, they may come out very loud. I'm sorry in advance. lol. Here are some recent pictures, too.

Odds and end pictures.

2008-11-13T10:56:00.003-06:00

Here are some of Hailee and Nicole with braids in their hair.

Here's more of Miss Lily!

I have some videos that I will upload later this afternoon, if I can steal mom's computer.

Here are some long await photos!

2008-11-13T09:47:00.007-06:00

Here are my devil, my witch and my little ghost!

Here's Grandma sleeping with baby Lily when they came up to visit.

Here's Lily with one of her great grandma's.

Some of Liliana's 1st pictures.

Some new pictures and videos........

2008-11-01T21:11:00.004-05:00

Miss Liliana wasn't feeling very well at Wal-Mart today. She got overheated and got sick...
Daddy giving Lily kisses and waking her up!

Lily peeking for those wanting to see her eyes.

More Pictures!

2008-10-24T08:00:00.006-05:00

Okay, Grandma Sandie, I know that you really have been patient in seeing your newest grandbaby. However, with fiances the way they have been I haven't been able to. But if all goes way and it's okay, I'm hoping to drive down Saturday morning. Unless Robert comes with me, it will be Hailee, Liliana and I. Please let me know if this weekend is not good.

The new hospital picture!

I turned 4 weeks today! :)

These were taken this afternoon. Look everyone I can hold my head HIGH! I smiling and cooing!

Liliana Update

2008-10-22T08:52:00.006-05:00

As of this past Monday, Liliana weighed in at 8 lbs, 2 oz. I have uploaded more pictures. So here everyone goes.

I will post more this afternoon, promise!

Liliana Update!

2008-10-13T15:10:00.013-05:00

Ok, this is for Grandma and everyone else that is waiting for Lily updates! On this past Friday Liliana weighed in at 7 lbs and 6 oz!!!! She is growing like a weed!
My Uncle Lennox and I!

Famous nappin with mommy!

Fast asleep after her bath!

Yes that is Daddy's hand at her feet!

Daddy kisses!

Dad you did it! I'm mad now! Stop kissin my neck!

Here's Liliana Pictures!

2008-10-04T17:56:00.015-05:00

Gotta love this black & white photo dad took of me, mom does!

Cuddle time with mom!

We are clean again!

Grandma Sandie we love our slingrider!

Mom is trying to get me ready to go to the doctors, but I getting mad.

Going to my first check-up with Dr. Harrington. She says that I weigh 6 lbs and 4 oz, but I grew an 1 inch! We have another weight check-up @ the end of next week.

I love my swing!

Lunch with Grandma Sandie, Britt, and mommy!

A little nap afterwards.

Update!

2008-10-03T16:16:00.002-05:00

Okay, I got the picture from the hospital! So here it is.. Our precious Little Liliana Jean-Jane Little.

I promise more are coming, hopefully today, we will see.

Met Miss Liliana Jean-Jane Little!!

2008-10-01T13:02:00.006-05:00

Miss Liliana Jean-Jane Little has much as we waited to see her, now we can't get enough of her. Enjoy these photos that were taken with camera phones, and I will upload more as soon as I get them off the actual camera!

Miss Brittany and Little Sister

Liliana Update...

2008-09-23T21:31:00.002-05:00

Well I went to the doctor's today, and for those that have not already heard. I am dilated to 3 and completely effaced! So I should I have her soon! For sure by Monday September 29, 2008; they are going to induce me! So for sure we will have a little Lily by then. I will keep everyone up todate with any new updates!

Take care until then.

BABY UPDATE!!

2008-09-11T11:34:00.002-05:00

Ok, so I'm really excited, as grandma's already know, I am dilated, between a 1-2. So hopefully within the next few days she will be here! I didn't think that I would have time to update while I was at my mom's, but I stole her computer for a few minutes! lol. I have an appointment again for next Wednesday if I make it that far. I am hoping that Little Lily will come within the next few days. Our owner of Torre's has shut us down for the next week, until we get our Liquor License back from the State of Kansas. So now is like perfect timing. I know that it might not happen, but I am hoping! I will keep you posted as the next couple of days proceed.

Life...

2008-09-05T08:40:00.004-05:00

Sorry that I have not updated anything on here. Life has been crazy, between the girls starting school a couple weeks ago and me getting promoted to the manager of the Pizzeria in Old Town.

The girls are well into school now and they love it which is good for them and me. I thought that maybe I would get a little break since I wasn't working but 20 hours a week. HAHA! That was a great thought, however it didn't happen! But life goes on.

I am really excited that this little bundle of joy will be here really soon. I will update that this afternoon! I go to the doctor's again this morning, so hopefully I hear great news. After this week I will be on weekly check ups.

Well the doctor says that Lily is against my cervix, but that as of right now I am not dilating! However, he says that most likely I will go zero to having a baby in a matter of hours! So I go back on next Thursday, unless for some reason I go into labor. So we will see, only Lily and God knows when she is coming!

Baby Shower!!

2008-08-09T18:20:00.002-05:00

Well I had my baby shower today. I got a bunch of cute little clothes. Plus a diaper cake and diapers. Plus some outfits. I updated my Babies R Us list. I don't need all of them. They are just some ideas of what I like. There are clothes and some other things! I have pictures of the baby shower which I will post as soon as I get them from my friend Cidenua. Well that's all for now.

Update...

2008-08-08T11:43:00.002-05:00

Well I went to the doctor this morning and I go back in 2 weeks (Friday Aug 22nd @ 10:50 @ the west office) if this little girl doesn't try to come sooner. I am already having contractions, the doctor is sending me for another sono, because I am in the beginning stages of labor. I will let everyone know how the sonogram goes. Yes Grandma, I am tryin to keep her in there until Sept. 1, but I don't know if we are going to make it. She has dropped really low, and the doctor says that he wants to make sure that her head is still down. It was last week at the sonogram. He also as order for a more approx weight and to check her lungs. I can tell you that I am really misable! lol. But we all know that is part of labor.

The girls start school this next week. YES!!! Thank Godness. They are really excited and so am I! I keep telling Liliana that she can't come until they are in school. LOL but we all know it's not up to me. Well there is really not much more that can be said on kids, so I will let everyone know how it goes.

Sono Pics!

2008-08-03T15:44:00.005-05:00

Well as promised here are the 3 sonogram pictures that we got on friday! She was approx 3 lbs and 12 oz, of course that is not exact weight. However, they did show that the due date moved up to Sept. 30th. So we will see what the doctor says on this coming Friday. I will keep you up to date!

Here is her adorable little face shot. She looks like it is being smashed. :(

Here is Lilly showing us here nose and lips.

And the only good foot shot.

Have a great week, everyone!

Baby Update!

2008-07-25T14:37:00.004-05:00

Well we went to the doctor's again today, and apparently I have to retake the blood glucose test, because mine was to high. I have to take a 3 hour test on this coming Monday to find out if I have pregancy diabeties. Then on Friday (1st) at noon we have another sonogram, so I will update more pictures of our Little Lilly! I am really excited to see if the due date changes, or how much she weighs. The next baby appointment is on August 8th at 10:20 A.M., so I will post shortly after that!

The doctor says that her heartbeat is really good, and that she's still there. lol. I am glad that she is still there, at least I get to stay working at this point. I can't wait til she gets to be here, and everyone gets to meet her.

Apparently I am having a baby shower in August thrown by my best-friend and boss, but she won't give me any details! Except that I will be on the schedule for the day of it, and she has told everyone not to tell me. lol.

Well that is all the update that I have for now. Take care and will update soon!

Girl update.

2008-07-23T19:47:00.003-05:00

Well, nothing to much going on here! I enrolled the girls today in school. We have 3 weeks until they start school again. I am really glad for that. They are so ready to be in school again!

Lilly is being a pain. I have started to have some minor contractions, not too bad. Nothing that is really something to worry about, however, I go back to the doctor's on Friday morning, so if I am wrong we will know then! I will let everyone know!

Here is a picture (as promised) of Liliana's coming home outfit!

Have a great week until then.

Lilly Update!

2008-07-11T21:24:00.002-05:00

Well we went to the doctor's today and go back on the 25th of July. We only have 12 weeks left until our bundle of joy gets here!! I am so excited, along with Robert! I took the diabetes test today, that orange drink has not gotten any better tasting then the last time! lol. I am hoping that maybe he will do another sonogram within the next month or so. If so I will post them! He said that Lilly's heartbeat is good.

Now I am just debating the our name and how to spell it. I like Lillianna, however, I don't know if we should spell it Lillianna or Lilliauna. Any other opinions on how to spell it?

Hailee and Nicole start school on Aug 12th, I don't know where the summer went to, but then again it just means that Lilly is closer to being here!

Well I will keep you posted as things go along. Until next time, have a great day!

2008-07-04T12:38:00.001-05:00

Happy 4th to everyone. Hope that all has a great day!

Baby Update!

2008-06-17T17:20:00.002-05:00

Well here is the update that everyone has been waiting for. Lilly's heartbeat is 148 as of today. I go back on the 11th of July. You can see her moving, and she like to be active when Robert's around.

Nicole is home today!! YEAH! Thank goodness that is over. We will still with the situation at hand for the next couple of months, but that is about that is goin on here.

I will post some pictures as soon as I get my computer up and going!

Well....

2008-06-02T15:51:00.003-05:00

Lilly is moving like crazy! Robert came over last night and was talking to her and she was kickin! She likes to do summersults if I sit straight up for to long! She is getting more and more active! It seems like the last week or so, that I haven't gotten enough sleep. I feel like I could use a vacation. LOL....

Robert is working out of town again, he is in Frontenc. (I spelled that wrong!) He is doing the driving back and forth. Thank goodness he gets to take the company truck, however, makes for a long day!

Hailee started swim lessons today. She said that she is learning to float on her tummy. She has 2 weeks of lessons, thru Primetime.

Nicole is in daycare for the next 3 weeks, (since it's paid for). So I only have 2 kids!

Times have changed!

2008-05-23T09:11:00.006-05:00

Well time has changed I guess! I don't understand this screwed up world! However, I am making the best of it! If anybody has questions to what I am talking about feel free to email me at jessroblittle@gmail.com.

I do want to let everyone know that I hope to come to Oklahoma City after I have this baby, so all can see and get to enjoy Miss Lilly Pie!

The girls finish up school today! YEAH!! Hailee is headed to 1st grade and Nikki is going to Kindergarten in the fall. A looooong summer is ahead, lol. I will have 4 kids this summer, so lots of park time and even a couple trips to the zoo! Well, I will get more pictures posted of the girls and I will keep everyone up todate on the baby.

Have a great day!

Sono Pictures!

2008-05-20T15:15:00.007-05:00

Well here are the sonogram pictures as I promised! I have more so if you want a copy of them all, including the one showing that she is a girl, just give me a shout! I don't have everyone's email address so let me know what that is and I will get you a copy! Her heartbeat was 150, at the check-up following the sonogram! They said she looks great!

This one is just of one arm, she is laying on the other! She is sucking on her thumb!

This one is with both arms!

Here is a picture of her face outline!

And this one is of course momma's favorite! you can see all but her little feet! She doesn't like her feet to be photographed!

It's a GIRL!!

2008-05-19T20:01:00.003-05:00

For all who has not been contacted yet, I just wanted to let you know that we are having a girl! Her name is going to be Lillianna Jean Little, she is going to be our little Lilly Pie. And there is no chance that she can be a boy. I got the crib bedding set today, her theme is Mickey and Minnie Mouse, the original ones. I also got her coming home outfit, it's a really cute little dress. So for those that are wondering I have registered at Babies "R" US, for now, I also was going to go register at either Wal-Mart or Target as well. We got some good sonogram pictures today and I will get them posted tomorrow! Promise, Lilly is a little shy of 1 lb as of today. We go back for another appointment in 4 weeks, on June 17th @ 4:00 pm. I will keep everyone up to date!

Until tomorrow, have a great night!

Letting Go...

2008-05-15T08:19:00.003-05:00

I realize that when you love someone so much it is really hard to let them go. It is really hard to change the way life has been, when you didn't know change was about to come. Change is not really that easy and explaining to the girls is not easy. Nothing is that easy. Maybe one day life will go back to the happiness that we once had, even if we are not together. Nobody really knows but the man upstairs.

On a happier note, we have the sonogram on this coming Monday, so hopefully we get to find out how big the baby is and what we are having! I am as excited as I can be over that! Robert is still planning on going to this, so I think it will be good!

Hailee has a family night at school tonight so she is singing. I will post pictures as soon as I can for all to see. Along with Nicole who has Pre-K graduation tomorrow at 1:00 pm. They are getting so big now. I have their spring school pictures and either my mom or I will post them as soon as possible. She has the scanner. lol.

Hope all as a great day!
Jessica

Happy Mother's Day

2008-05-11T11:15:00.002-05:00

First I want to wish every mother a Happy Mother's Day. There's a lot to say, but it won't be in this blog. I promise in due time I will catch everyone up to speed on what is going on.

Have a great day!

WOW..

2008-05-08T09:45:00.002-05:00

I realize that when you tell one person something bad that has happened it spreads like wildfire. And I want to say that I am truely sorry. I want to say thank you to everyone that cares so much to want to help thru this time. But please DO NOT!!! It does not help, it seems to make the fire burn and the hurt so much worse! If you don't know what I am talking about don't feel left out. I promise it's okay.

I will say that the baby is fine and that we will have the sono on May 19th. So I will make another post after that.

Robert and I will be ok. I have faith in that.. And that is what holds me strong. Robert I want you to know I am making a stand here and now. I love you with all my heart and I will send you an email for you. But please know the girls and I love you...

Jessica

Baby update...

2008-04-25T12:31:00.004-05:00

Well I went to the doctors this past Tuesday (April 22nd). The baby's heart beat is 153 and going strong. I put on another 3 lbs, lol. The doctor told me he expects me to put on 5 lbs by May 19th, which is the sonogram & my next appointment. YEAH!! Lets cross our fingers that the baby will show weather the girls are going to have a brother or a sister!!

Robert is still working out of town. He says that it will probably only last another couple of weeks, at the most. Guess we will see soon, however, his class is almost done for the summer, I think there is like 3 or 4 weeks left.

I got moved out of Oaklawn, now just trying to get everything organized. Thank goodness for the weekend! It seems like that is the only time I have to get things done. It won't be so bad when I can just get the time to put things together and unpack. Robert is going to put up some shelves in the bedroom closet and over the kitchen sink. The next big project will be to move Robert out of his apartment, thankfully he doesn't have that much big stuff! He likes the duplex that we got and it is not that far from the Union Hall.

I will post some pictures of the girls hopefully this next week or so.

Well I guess that is it for now, I better get back to work! :)

WOW..

2008-04-15T21:54:00.003-05:00

Well, I am down one job tonight. Tonight was my last night at H&R Block, at least until December. However, I do the typing test for the Data Entry position with the Post Office tomorrow. So I might be starting another job soon. But it pays good and it will go until I have the baby, so I am happy about that.

The girls did good bowling weekend before last. In fact they did almost better than me. lol.... (They had bumpers too.)

I am moving out of Oaklawn, which is a good thing. Moving into a better place, or at least I think so. Robert gets to see the inside tomorrow if all goes well. He would of seen it today, but he is working out of town. He left this morning and is staying out there during the week, except Monday and Wednesday nights, because of class. However, it's less wear on him, he gets more sleep this way!

Spring Cleaning

2008-03-27T17:07:00.003-05:00

Hailee came home yesterday complaining of her back hurting. Apparently the problem has went on for the last couple of days at school and they finally sent home a note last night regarding it, so I gave her a warm bath to try and comfort her. Apparently she has chronic constipation, and an UTI; on top of that the have sent her lab for a further culture on her lab because they think that she might have this Impetigo internally. So I had to let her school know what was going on with Nicole's school because Hailee has been exposed, and so have some of the other kids that go to her school that live next door to my mom.

Nicole has a sore under her nose that looks like a cold sore. So I took off from work to take the to the doctors. Which I am really glad that I did. Apparently there was a breakout of Impetigo in Nicole's preschool/daycare last week in another hall; and they didn't think it was important to tell any parents about it. Well I found out that what we thought was a simple cold sore, is actually Impetigo and can be spread very easily. So everything in the house that Nicole has touch or slept with or anything has to be cleaned in Hot water to be disinfected. Nicole keeps picking at it, which is how it gets spread.

The doctor told me that I have to extremely careful because I can get it easier than Robert because my body is fighting illnesses for 2. So kids are out of school for the rest of the week and I will be off work. I just really wish that when kids were sick their parents would not send them to school, or that the school would have better communication with parents. I thought we were over being sick in the house. But I guess we will have to stick it out another week. So since everything has to be cleaned it's a great time for spring cleaning. There's no reason to keep the junk!! Right? lol

I guess the upside to this is I get to work from home for the next couple of days, because the kids don't get to go anywhere. I have to do auditing for the 300-400 pledge sheets that we entered for the week. So at least I will still hit 35 hours on my paycheck!

Well that's it for now, I think. Hope everyone has a great day!

OH!!

2008-03-25T22:00:00.002-05:00

I don't know how I forgot about his excitement, however, the building that I work in was on lock-down today. There was an officer that was shot at 2 blocks to the east of us. I thought that I was going to have to reschedule the baby's appointment. The building was locked down for over 2 hours. They finally allowed me to leave with an escort out of the building and the doors had to be locked, and I had to go out the wrong way (one way) street to get out on another road. The officer that was shot at is okay though.

Baby Update!

2008-03-25T20:58:00.002-05:00

Happy Be-lated Easter to all!!! I got pictures of the girls, however, they are not uploaded to the computer yet. Will post when I get the chance.

Ok, I know it's been a while since I have updated everyone. So we went to the doctors today. Robert and I got to hear the baby's heart beat. Sounded great! We go back on April 22nd, but I will keep everyone updated. The doctor says my sonogram/ultrasound will be in approx 8 weeks, which is in May sometime. YEAH!! We can't wait, the doctor says we should be able to see what the sex of the baby is. So Sandie we will let you know as soon as we find out. You'll be called before the site is updated! Promise.

The girls started back to school, they were out last week on Spring Break. Thank goodness they went back. They were getting crazy, they were off schedule. They are ready for school to be out for the summer. Robert wanted to go fishing, but the weather didn't cooperate with him! I guess he will be going soon enough. He only has a couple more months of school, along with the kids.

I took the USPS test for the Data Entry Position here, I am awaiting the test results.

Well that's it for now. I will post again soon.

So...

2008-03-11T20:25:00.007-05:00

Ok, well a short update. I know that I have not posted in over a week now. I am at a stand still with H&R Block, there is no more hours until the 1st of April and then we are done with the tax season on April 15th. So, knowing that I need to work, I went and got a temp job at Big Brothers Big Sisters, inputing data for the Bowl For Kids' Sake. In while doing that, I have joined one of the teams, along with Hailee, but the net is down so it will not let me join our team. However we go bowling on April 6th. I think that Hailee is really excited about getting to bowl to help kids that her age.

Well, I am over being sick which is really great. I feel 10 times better, we go back to the doctors in a couple weeks and I am hoping that the doctor will be able to pick up the baby's heart beat. I am eating 5 small meals instead of 3 big meals. I don't drink any pop that has caffeine in it. I as well don't smoke, Robert is cutting back. He smokes by the front or back door, but not really in the house. It makes me sick. lol.. Well I think that is it for now..

Bowl for Kids' Sake

2008-03-11T20:20:00.003-05:00

Hi I'm fundraising for Big Brothers Big Sisters this year by participating in the Bowl For Kids' Sake event. Please sponsor me. You can make a pledge or donation by clicking one of the links next to the picture on my page, which is at http://www.kansasbigs.org/bfks/bowlerview.aspx?id=jlshafer9 ..... Hailee is also doing it, she is excited because she gets to bowl for free and raise money for kids in our community, her page is as follows. If she gets over $150 then she will get a free t-shirt. If not she still gets to have a pizza party and hang out with kids her age. http://www.kansasbigs.org/bfks/bowlerview.aspx?id=Hailee

Thanks very much for your support, it means a lot. Both Big Brothers Big Sisters and I thank you in advance for any support you can give.

Best Wishes,
Jessica Shafer & Hailee Agresto

UGH!!

2008-03-03T13:55:00.002-06:00

Ok, I know it's been a couple days since I have updated everyone. I have been really, really sick. Robert thought that I might have bronchitis. The doctor told me that I had to suffer, because there is nothing that I can take for it. So I take a cough drop at night (because I can only take 2 in 24 hour period, if more than that was taken apparently it can crystallize the baby's lung,) so 1 is enough for me. So lots of 7-up, Sprite, juice, and water has been my diet for almost a week. Until the night before where I finally was able to eat a little something. Robert has been taking care of the girls on his day off (the weekend) so I can sleep. So today I feel a lot better!! Not quite myself but at least I don't feel like I can't get out of bed.

Robert got sent home today, because of all the rain, he called it rained out. He's been playing in mud all last week. So he took a day for rest. He feel back asleep watching T.V.. lol But he has class tonight so at least he is resting up for it!

The girls finally cleaned there room, I mean really cleaned it. They put their toys were they were suppose to go. Of course Hailee did the most of it with help from me, but she tried, so that's what counts there! They are both doing so good in school. And luckily neither one of them of gotten sick from me. Knock on wood.

Update...

2008-02-26T18:14:00.004-06:00

Well we went to the doctor's today. The doctor tried to pick up the heart-beat today, however, they couldn't get it. They said that in 4 weeks when we go back they should be able to pick up the heart-beat. :( So we still don't really know anything new. I still have morning sickness, well more mid-day sickness. Robert still thinks it's kinda funny. I think he was disappointed that he didn't get to her the heart-beat.

Robert has been playing in the mud. Boys will be boys. He comes home really dirty, and is so cute... He even likes to try and make me think he is going to get me muddy. (LOL) He still is going to class. He had a class this past Saturday and they got to blow-up bottles that had carbon dioxide and water in them. He thought that was pretty cool. He even took video on his phone.

The girls are still doing good, I am still trying to get them to clean their room. Every time I think that they are going to get it clean, they just push stuff under the bed, or in the closet. They think it is funny.

As far as me, besides morning sickness, I am tired a lot. But still manage to have the time to do everything that needs to be done. I can't wait until morning sickness is all gone... That will be so great!!

Update!

2008-02-19T10:41:00.003-06:00

Well, Robert went to the concert and had a blast. He got an autographed CD, from the band. He has got a little drunk, Hailee told him that he smelled, and asked him if he had been drinking Root Beer. LOL... (Busted by an almost 7 year old.) He woke up late Monday morning, but he did go to work, and then to class.

I had a Partylite bingo party at the Airport Hilton, and it was fun. I am considering becoming a Partylite Consultant. I think it would be something that I could do after I have the baby, but we will see how the meeting goes this weekend.

As far as the baby, there's really not an update yet, we go to the doctor in 1 week. That is 1 week from today, however, I will post as soon as we go to the doctor.

Oh the fun!!

2008-02-16T21:30:00.003-06:00

Well, 1st let me say Happy belated Valentines days to all. Robert got spoiled, he got the "Hallmark" dog that wants hugs... From the girls and baby. Then I got him a Tesla ticket for the concert on Sunday night.. (I conspired with his best-friends wife, so his best-friend is going with him.) So we are going to Oklahoma City to see Britt at Robert's mom. We have to drive home from Oklahoma City earlier than usual on Sunday so Robert can meet up with Jason and go to their concert. I will post pictures of the dog and Robert's ticket.

I hope that everyone has a great day!

Getting better

2008-02-11T17:51:00.000-06:00

Well 1st thing 1st. I am feeling a lot better. "knock on wood", I hope that the worst of that is over.

So what's on the agenda today: I am going through my house to de-clutter. I am going through stuff and getting rid of things that I don't need. I am making the girls pick up their books that they just set on the bookshelf and the floor around it. I told them that it is time that the pick it up after themselves. You can't see their floor half the time. They have been so spoiled that they have so many toys that they don't play with half of them, so we are going to go through them tonight and down size. Because it seems like they get new toys (updated toys for their age) for their birthdays and Christmas. Also we are going to go through their clothes, because Nikki is getting to big for her size 5 pants, and their is no need to keep them when we can pass them down to Brittany. Nikki's dad has asked for a list of clothes that she needs for here.

Robert had to work out of town again today, so he didn't even make it home before class. He wasn't very happy this morning, it started raining around 3ish this morning, I think, and time he got out the door it was sleeting in little pea hail. He left his ice scrapper in the house, and called and said that his windshield was freezing before he got to the highway. He made it to his Foreman's house about 30-45 min later, and it took them an extra hour to get where they had to go. (The drive is usually 1 1/2-2 hours, and it took them closer to 2 1/2 to 3.) Thank goodness he only has another day to drive out there before he gets to work back in town for the rest of the week. The hospital is almost completed out there.

Well I hope everyone has a great day! Feel free to ask any questions, if you want.

Oh will it ever end?

2008-02-09T11:11:00.000-06:00

Well just an update. Beside the girls having a viral flu and sharing it with me, and the morning sickness, I am beginning to wonder if it will ever end? Robert has not been home except late in the evenings because he's been working out of town, so he has amazingly/surprisingly not got sick. But he likes to shake the furniture that I am sitting on to see if I will get sick. He's a pain in the butt!!! But I still love him. He is just so excited!

I was told about a myth that I don't know if it is true, but I was told that the lower the heartbeat that the baby is a boy, and the higher the heartbeat it is a girl. Now I can tell you that Hailee's & Nikki's heartbeat was both high, and the little boy that I had for my cousin was low! So going off this, maybe we will get a boy, but I will find out the sex of the baby when I am closer to 18-20 weeks. I will keep everyone updated!

Baby Update

2008-02-07T23:51:00.000-06:00

Ok, we went and had another sonogram today. Unfortunately, Robert couldn't make it, he was working out of town. I am 5 weeks and 5 days. My due date is October 4th. The baby is .20 cm long, and we even got to hear the heartbeat; it was at 100 bpm. The tech said that this is the earliest that you can hear the baby's heart beat. My mom has gave the baby a nickname "her Kidney Bean". Here is my favorite sonogram picture and the reason she gave the baby this nickname. Robert was excited that he still got to see pictures even though he couldn't make it to the sonogram.

The girls are really excited now that they got to see a picture of the baby. They think that the baby is "really, really" small. Hailee wanted to know if it was a girl or a boy, and how you could tell. So I told her that we had to wait approx another 13 weeks before we could tell.

I will keep everyone posted as we know more.

SURPRISE!!

2008-02-02T19:52:00.000-06:00

Well as a lot of people know now, I am pregnant!! Yeah we wasn't planning on it, we were both taking by surprise. We are excited though. We don't know the exact due date my doctor told me I was 10-11 weeks which puts my due date at Aug 27th, the tech that did my sonogram, was too busy taken pictures of the structures around my uterus, like my ovaries that she didn't see the baby she said. So I go back to the doctor on February 26th. I think he will call me before then, though. I will keep everyone posted as we know more.

I want to say "thank you" to all our family and friends that is giving us their support during this time. I know that some people don't know me very well or Robert, but the love that Robert and I share is "once in a lifetime" he truly is my inner peace and I am his. And I hope that all our family and friends will give us their support and come to accept this. I know it is a huge adjustment for all, and that it will take time for everyone to adjust to this. We understand this and are willing to accept that with all. And for those curious minds, yes I am quiting smoking. It is a decision that Robert and I have made, for the best interest of the baby.

On the other hand, the girls are good. They are staying busy, Nicole is sick with a sinus infection (I think). She went to her dad's this weekend, he called me and told me that she was running a fever at 100*, he said that he gave her medicine. He brought her into my work today and she gave me a hug and I realized that she once again had a fever again. I asked him if he had taken her temp and he said no, he hadn't gave her medicine to get the fever down. It's frustrating, however, she came home for a little bit and I got the fever down, so I was happy about that. I just hope that he makes sure that her fever stays down, or at least goes to the ER. They both are excited that we are having a baby, they are going to help pick some things out for the baby to help them with the adjustment. They are in disagreement over it being a girl or boy. Nicole thinks if it is a girl, we should name her Tinkerbell. We tried to explain why that wouldn't be a good girls name, but she is set on it. Hailee has about 3 names for both girls and boys. Well I think that is about it for now. Anyone has any questions, please feel free to ask.

Crazy....

2008-01-25T14:10:00.000-06:00

Well it's been a crazy the last couple of weeks, but we made it through them. I am working for only H&R Block now, it's great I love it! Working really any shift they need covered. Robert is still doing the remodeling of the Dillons here. Today we got our phones back on! Hooray!! Has most of our friends know, if you don't have Verizon the you can not call unless it is after 9 or on a weekend, now there are exceptions, but those people know who they are, this is per Robert. However, you can text away, we have unlimited on that.

Anyways, I bought Hailee a new coat. She likes it, ok she loves it. Her old one was white and got dirty all the time, and she complained that she was cold even when she was bundled, so I went and bought one that comes down past her knees, but she is soooo cute. I took it up to her at school. I thought maybe some of her, "I don't feel good" problems was because she was getting to cold on the playground. (Robert told me about a month or two ago we needed to get her a new one, because the white one collects so much dirt, even when it is washed.)

Well that is all the update I have for now.

Today is Monday....

2008-01-14T11:38:00.000-06:00

Well today is a typical Monday. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning, but I did. Hailee still don't feel better, but I took her to moms and called the doctor. I ended up having to miss work because the doctor won't give my mom results. They still have no clue what is wrong with her.

Well today is 1/21/08. Both girls are out of school because of Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday. They both are sick. I have a feeling that they both have a sinus infection. They both have a lot of drainage from their noses. Their doctor tested them for strep and told me to give them Mucinex instead of giving them antibiotics. But if they don't start getting better than they are going to have to go back to the doctor.

Robert & I haven't been feeling well as well. Robert's truck is down and so he is driving the blazer, I got the Corsica back from my dad, temporarily. Hopefully I will get the rest of my w-2's and be able to fill my taxes soon. Then we will be able to get some things taken care of. Well that is about all the update I have for now.

Kids say the funniest things.....

2008-01-08T23:06:00.000-06:00

Hailee said to me tonight that she wishes that I could have a baby boy, then she changed it to she wishes that I could have 2 babies, both boys. So there is an even number of boys to her and Nikki. So I told her that she needed to talk to Daddy about this dilemma, so on a commercial we had daddy come in the other room. She then asks "Daddy can you go buy a watermelon?" He replies with "they are out of season, right now." I whispered to ask her why.... So he asks why Hailee. She says "So mommy can have the seeds to make 2 babies, both boys.." Robert shaking his head just looks at me with this funny look. So I then have to explain why her thinking is this way. Hailee then tells daddy again that she wants to baby brothers, and that mommy must have a watermelon, to make this happen.

Dazed

2008-01-08T19:40:00.001-06:00

Today as been one of the longest days and the year just began. Hailee went to the doctor's yesterday because she has been complaining of her stomach hurting. I thought maybe it was her appendix, however, they told me that she was severely compacted. Soooo they gave her this medicine that you mix with water and ti is suppose to help clear things up, well I guess in a matter of speaking it did, about 1:30 this morning she woke up screaming, because she got sick in her bed. ALL OVER THE BED, So Robert helped me get her out of her yucky jammies and got her set up on the couch. I got laundry started. I was up for approx another 1 1/2 after he went back to bed. Then went to work this morning, and called home at noon. I just hope that this medicine don't do it to her again tonight. If it does I might just have to miss tomorrow too, and I really don't want to do that.

Nicole on the other hand is for some reason thinking that she is the queen of everything. She thinks that it is okay to backtalk, and to cuss. She told me that her therapist said she could. She thinks that everything is her way. She is going thru this fits like nothing else. I know that God will give me the strength that I need, but Robert and I are talking all the toys out of their room. Hopefully, this will get rid of some of the issues we are having. Robert is working out of town, but I think he is done breaking the equipment for now. lol. He started classes back last night. He cooked dinner tonight. He made Chicken Parmesan, and green beans, it was really, really good. He just came in the computer room and showed me his "souvenir" from work. I had to take a picture. Hope that it makes you laugh like it did me.:)

Crafty

2008-01-06T12:18:00.000-06:00

Hailee got tickets to the Wichita Thunder hockey game last night. We played Colorado, and we beat them in Sudden Death Overtime. It was also Thunder Dog (the team mascot) birthday. We had a blast, Robert wasn't so into it, but he had fun. The school was trying to help families be able to have a family night. Here's a fun picture!

When we got home Hailee had to eat dinner again and off to bed she went. Robert came and got on the internet. And I had too get a crafts project done......

Well as everyone that has read my blog in the last week or so knows that I have started a new job with MDA. I will start another job for H&R Block on the 18th of this month as well. So in the mean time i decided to do a little bits of crafts. Here are a few pictures. (they are flower pens.)

I think that I want to make more of these pens and do a fund raiser for Muscular Dystrophy Assn. I think that they would be fun to do, and yet it would help kids that are here in our area.

Ok, well that is my thoughts for the day.

WOW

2008-01-02T20:09:00.000-06:00

I found my cousins that I haven't seen in almost 5 years on myspace early this morning, when I was in search for my best friend. I thought that maybe they were upset with me and that they might not add me, but come to find out my cousin Billie was happy to add me. She is studying law in San Diego, CA. GO BILLIE GO!! That makes me very proud of her.

Well, my 1st day of work went good. You have to keep a very positive attitude, which I think is GREAT! My mom didn't pick Nikki up at 3 and the school refused to let Robert pick her up, which upset me since I have added him 5 times to her pick up list.

Robert had a long day, he broke the key off in the backhoe's fuel cap, so he was stuck for almost 2 hours. Then he went to unload some pipes from a semi, and the fork-lift ran out of fuel with the forks half in the air. Then he sat the pipes down on the wood pieces and then started to back away and heard the pipes bouncing into the Dillons parking lot. So he had to wrestle them all by himself.

He took the starter off my 96 Corsica, and fixed it so there would be another running vehicle for my parents. Now we will have to get the 4-Runner fixed and then that will be up and running. He has cars to fix left & right. My mom wants him to fix their other car, has something electrical wrong with it.

My mom cooked dinner since Robert fixed the car!! YEAH! I didn't have to cook! She made finger steaks and fried potatoes. <<<<<<<<<<< YUMMY >>>>>>>>>>>>> I got my mom to set up her own blog too. Her name is Pam, you can check out her page, by clicking the link on my page.

Nikki started back to school today, as I meant above. She is tired and cranky. Thank goodness she is bed. She had her 1st bed-time accident last night in months. I am proud that she is almost potty trained. Hailee starts school tomorrow, so I have a feeling that they both are going to be quite worn out, or at least I am hoping. Hopefully they will be ready to get back on schedule. I love them both, but thank goodness for school!

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T13:33:00.000-06:00

Is everyone ready for the new year? I hope so. Robert passed out on me about 9:45 last night. I woke him up to ring in the new year with me. He apparently could not get back to sleep, he came crawling to bed around 7 this morning. It's a good thing that he doesn't have to work today. But back to work for us both tomorrow. I am so excited!! I cooked a turkey a couple nights ago and we broke the wish bone. He won the wish. The girls are excited to start back to school! They want to go back tomorrow, but I don't think that they start until the 3rd, or at least Hailee doesn't.

Well I gave in and made chocolate chip cookies for Robert. He thinks that they are breakfast. lol.

Sorry

2007-12-29T22:23:00.000-06:00

Well I know that it has been over a month since I have blogged, and I am so sorry. Things have been crazy. I lost my job back at the beginning of this month. So bless his soul, everything has been on Robert. But, Robert got my blazer picked up! Here's a picture for those that have not seen it!

Thanksgiving was good, same yet different then every other year! Nicole helped me make Banana Nut Bread and the bowl got knocked over so we had to restart but here's what she looked like. She kept crying the banana nut bread is ruined.

Robert was hiding downstairs watching tv. While papa just came in from playing in the leaves.

My dad (papa) decided that he would be one of the kids and play in the pile of leaves!

Next was Nikki's birthday and we were stuck inside due to the nasty weather that Kansas got, so momma made the chocolate cupcakes that Nikki begged for and we had our own family party!

Hailee had a Christmas play at school, it was adorable, however the girls decided that it would be fun to play with my camera and turned the brightness up so the pictures did not turn out. I did figure out what they did, but not until after the fact. I am waiting on some pictures from another parent!

Next it was Christmas and that was a blast. We went to Robert's grandma's on Friday before Christmas, and then got to see his dad and the bike.

Here's one with Robert Sr. in the background.

Then we seen Greg & Amber, and seen Anna. Then headed off to Tahlequah, OK. Oh my gosh, the pictures just didn't do it justice! We got to see nature (deers) up close and personal. Hailee thought that was cool. We had fun and we got to spend Sunday with Britt. She didn't feel good. (It was great getting to see her!) Hailee was excited, she got this purple pig that oinks and a Barbie car just like her sisters! (But they are not fighting over it no more, I put initials on them.) Then after most of day was up, was the long and tiring ride back to Kansas. I tried to get us lost, but Robert knew better. When we got home we picked up Nikki and we couldn't even get the car unloaded before Nikki wanted to open up the presents from Sandie & Mikey. They wanted to stay up all night and play. Robert loves his Guitar stuff too. He keeps playing with it. I think that he needs his own little room for it.

Christmas day we spent the morning at home and then went to my sister's. But before we could do that the girls had to gang up on daddy.

Just so everyone knows Robert put that candy thermometer to good use. He gave it to my mom (Who tried to make fudge the night before and needed a thermometer)!

Then Hailee got to go see her dad, & Amanda (along with Alexis & Evan) who came up from Arkansas & Nikki went to her dad's. Hailee's uncle Jerry came in from Colorado, she was very excited about seeing him. Here's a picture that has Alexis, Jerry & Hailee all together.

Hailee got spoiled at Grandma Judy's! She got a portable DVD player, (among other things) I had to go buy an adopter for the headset jack so they can hear it in the car.

So my mom talked us into going to Newkirk, OK, to go gambling. Robert won the jackpot on Penny Poker. My mom hit a jackpot to that was about 6x smaller than Robert, and I didn't hit any jackpot but I didn't lose anything!

I think that about sums up everything. I got a new job, it starts on January 2, 2008. Hopefully all goes well and we will get a new place together this year as well!

The 1st update

2007-11-20T08:52:00.001-06:00

Ok, I know it's been a while since I have updated my blog, but so much has went on. I don't even know where to start. The kids are good. They have to start seeing a therapist but besides that they are doing great. Hailee is ranked 3rd in her class and Nicole they say is testing at a 6 year olds level. I am happy that they are both doing good. They said that Hailee's reading is so good that they want to move her to a 1st grade reading class. Hailee loves prime time (after school latchkey), even more now that she gets to do girl scouts on Wednesday night. Nikki doesn't think that it's fair. I told her next year she can do it.

Here are some pictures of the girls on Halloween.

Nicole is of course a witch!

Hailee's a devil, actually a crimson sorcerous!

Here are some of Hailee & daddy cutting the pumpkin!

Hailee is trying to gather the seeds of the pumpkin, so Grandma can make something yummy!

The pumpkin is finally done!!

There's more to say, but I will have to do that when I get back.

Work

2007-10-20T15:40:00.000-05:00

Today seems like a never ending day!! I woke up late, but managed to get to work without to much complication. Bob kept Hailee, and is doing minor repairs on vehicles today. They came up for lunch. I was so happy, then the day like started going really slow, and I don't know why!!

Sorry, that I have not updated this lately. Between kids, school, cleaning, and work, it seems like I never have 2 seconds to myself. Some days it is just horrible, and others it is okay. Thank God there is Bobby!!! I find myself saying that a lot. He is so great to have! One day he might make a post on here, um mm or not... lol

He got a new toy today, it's a PS2. He got a game and then we got one for the girls, Hailee waited patiently for her turn. Then she did better then me on it, it was "Finding Nemo".

Okay update, my dad's blood work came back and his red blood count is way to high. They said that he most likely has cancer, how bad or where its at we won't know until he goes in for more test on October 31st.

Zoo

2007-10-12T11:13:00.000-05:00

Well as everyone's probably heard by now we went to the zoo last weekend. The Local Union for Plumbers & Pipefitters threw this get together, it was fun to hang out with some of the people Bob works for, and then we went to start to walk the zoo. We took my best-friend and her 2 boys with us! We ran into my nieces & nephew (Tina & Mercedes) and their brother Mathew. That's when I knew that the day was going to get emotional! I have not seen these guys since Feb., because they moved to Hawaii. OMG!! When Bob realized who they were he got camera happy! lol... So it kinda turned out more like a family event, instead of work related!

The good thing was is that the kids got so wore out that they went to sleep on the way home!! Finally a moment of silence. After dropping kids off, we had to go to Kansas City to take my cousin Cody up to his Aunts house. We went straight up and straight back it made for a very long drive. Besides the fact that we didn't see our exit so we drove an extra hour the scenic way home.

The next day got busy, because Tina's mom threw her a birthday party and all she wanted for her 12th birthday was her family there. She didn't want any presents! So we were the girls out, the birthday party was at a park in Augusta called The Castle or something like that... It looked like a hugh castle with all kinds of cool things to play on.

Hailee's Night

2007-10-12T11:06:00.000-05:00

Hailee had a program called Lights On! They sung Lee Greenwood, "Proud to be an American"

Then they decided to be little cheerleaders!! They are so cute!!

Then they decided before we left that we needed to go on the moon bounce, Bob took the picture, after I asked that he didn't...

Well we had fun that's all that matters!

So Fraustrated

2007-10-03T18:20:00.002-05:00

Well it's been really busy around here. Just getting over bronchitis, while trying to get the girls back to their schedules. Hailee seen her real dad for the first time since the week before Christmas. She had fun, but she was happy to come home. The first words out of her mouth was I got to stay with my dad by myself. Talk about coming off the hinge, oh what I would of done if she would of been hurt! The agreement of Hailee seeing her dad was that he was not to be left alone with her. The good thing is that she doesn't lie! Nor can she be quiet, we got a full description of the whole weekend. The best part I think was when she told her dad that we were going back to Oklahoma City in a couple of weeks.

Nicole came home next and she was with her Dad's mom (the other Grandma Judy). She came home with a cold. I think it's just her allergies, but she missed school today because she was running a fever. We found out a couple of days ago that my Uncle Dan has cancer and that there is a high chance that my dad could have it too. Let's pray not! He goes to the doctor on Friday for blood test!!! OMG please!!!!!

I don't know what I would do without Bobby. My positive reinforcement, he is the GREATEST!!! I don't like to be in a negative state! I keep telling him I am ready for my Oklahoma break, and it's only been a week and a half since we were last there!

Rob's Birthday

2007-09-30T11:19:00.000-05:00

Today is Rob's Birthday and we went out last night to celebrate. For his birthday day and to have a break from my 2 munchkins. First we went to the movies (we saw Resident Evil Extinction) and then to the bar. It was a lot of fun, we got the karaoke gal to sing to him, actually everyone in the bar was singing..

It was great!! He turned red, we had a blast! We got back home and played taxi for a friend of his, but it was okay, I got to meet another friend!! Thank God he was driving!